Damn.

Damned.

Damned.

2012

I always wonder why bird stay in the same place when they can fly. Then I ask myself the same question

Every person need a best friend to make her laugh when she think she will never laugh again. Forget what hurt you in the past but never forget what it taught you.

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If life is so damn fuck, you fuck it up higher!
What will make me smile now is not the boy in gym i can see each day, but is lying down on my bed knowing i have no deadlines, test, presentation to rush.
This is the way to say 'fuck you' to pharmacy sometimes.
I hate the way you drive my life.

Circle of life

Greeting cards from the loves

Wow. Time really does fly. And so do many things in our lives. That is the reason why is it called the circle of life. It always doesn't have a starting and an ending point. The same apply to friends. They come and they go.Looking back through my contact list, i am actually know who i still keep in touch with but how many friendships were just remain the same again as last time. But we keep them as our treasure loves, once they are kept they are meant to be stay. 

 Notice board from Jeanie

Isn't it good to have someone serenade you to sleep? =P

The great new companion-vivian =)

Conversations with people always contain simple messages and meeting with new friend is always lovely with the late night chit-chat and warm concerns.

Last but not least, a simple AWESOME messages from the housemates. 

Erm...perhaps she will never know that i can put her photos here actually beside fb. xD

Pink and purple

You are,
sunken
drunken
Hungry for sparks
an appetite for memory
Tell me your way of sorrows
the explosion
loud and vivid
is a sudden burst of heartbreak of a hollow glow
Me
breathe
the color of envy
trouble thoughts and tired mind
one year in every summer
I manage it
the sour inhales
vanish into bubbles
You dip to the city of romance
the sparkle and scent of brand new place
with an abandoned hug

a demand that diverge 

a spoken sympathy for now

She alone
bleed and burn
for the hearing of heart
it melts to a shriek
She turn for the bleeding air
dark as the mystery of a daydream
lost for some moment
The second time for she
to last it out and not come back at all
shut into an edgy
As you cannot find
and will not fight
a way for this
She is consumed
don't let the moment slip
as is hanging by your heartbeat
the forgetful that give on those ledges

bla bla bla

Better days are coming. I can feel it. At least i survived through this 5 days lab straight this week. Will probably collapse to the bed after each day.

Life has been humdrum. Sometimes when I study or attend boring classes I just feel like screaming out loud. Information just wouldn't absorb, and with all the long hours and stupid labs I get frustrated with myself easily. And ended up hitting the gym to release all these anger out, getting lost in good looking boy or whatever that i actually can being in peace with myself.

I hate studying. I hate it. But i love learning. Is different! For me this two are different, like so much.Fucking shit that i am always doing the former one than the second.

Crap crap crap soon.I am going to my dreamland again with the boy images. Dot dot dot....

What the eye doesn't see, the heart doesn't grieve over

The idea that the heart doesn't grieve over what the eye doesn't see is importantly different.But what of the things the eye not only doesn't see, but will never see? The unfaithfulness that forever remains a secret, the lies that never get back to me, or any other thoughts and sharing i have about ourselves or others? What is the point of bringing these truths to the attention of people when they will be hurt, if they will be happier not knowing? Sometimes i think ignorance is bliss but is a fool paradise.

It is surprising how much i think i know about myself, but in fact i actually don't. I hardly know the reflection point that is keep starring right back at me because i never bother to resolve them. Reality always is the wake up call. This is my third year doing this course, i haven't been doing anything much beside feeding all the crap loaded in the modules. I don't like going for boring classes and end up slaving myself during the lecture hours,i get nothing beside wasting the time, i just deciding to throw the lectures to the dustbin. I neither find it boring or i just finding excuses to myself, it can be attributed to the very lack of efficiency as opposed to the amount of every lectures.

What went wrong? I cant seem to connect the dot dot dot in mine. Why did i dip myself in pharmacy anyway? I am not a genius in drugs, the money isn't the factor anyway. I am not a bright student, neither a quick learner, i might need to spent triple hard work compared to others.  I don't have the qualities captured for being a good pharmacist, communication isn't my capabilities neither.  To search for the faults,I actually wanted to do crime scene investigation [ too much drama resulted ] where decease are monarch. Lol. This time i might be studying and communicate with the death one which i probably find it more interesting.

Dot dot dot.

The peoples

I like to day dream, to stare out of the window and think of ' What if ' , that was why i ended up getting a small notes written as-' Dont stay in the dream for too long, WAKE UP' inside the fortune biscuits during our CNY home dinner. [ Everyone burst into laugh ]. I have been sitting in the journey of life for quite some time, forgetting to ask myself to stop by and enjoy the bits of sceneries that flashed by. Finally, i stopped and asked myself what was missing. I don't know, i hardly see or reach it, or even feel it. But i NEED it.

The manja one

Maybe i have got what i want, but just need to connect the dot dot dot.
Connecting.