Cher Lloyd-Stay With Me-Xfactor Live Show 30th October 2010

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I always feel that 24 hours just so not enough for me, and fear that i cant finish/have enough time to do what I want to do. Life is so short yet you are so greedy and want to enjoy more. Nor it in more money to spent,travel more, or be more consistent and put more effort in your studies. I think coming to Glasgow last month marked the beginning of a new change. Alcohol and liquor aside,not to mention this,i wont probably highlight on it much,i have decided how i would like my third and fourth year here to be. And realised that although i am not some Noble prize winner or some rich guy's daughter, at least i am not a piece of shit. More fulfilling. More enrich experience. More new friends. More talk. And get to know myself better.

I would probably overload myself with work but there are fun activities which i am enjoy for doing them. A conversation with julia, i get to know that, for her, i am a thoughtful person as she said i have the thinking look and have a lots in mind and hardly share with people. She is not the first to say so. I think i could have done more to minimise all these imperfections. I want to be happy. And i want to try to make people who care and love me to be happy too. And of course not to let myself back to the past.

It is amazing how people that i know have changed to become who they are today. For the better for them ? A slight change, understanding too well in a sudden become stranger .Would you  give them one more chance and place your trust again?Dilemma. I hope everything goes well.

Silence, War

                  The weather today is surprisingly good. Sunshine.=)  But still it is cold.

Jyun left. Fui wei went to the city. And then the birthday girl went out with her friends since morning. Thank god Lee Jing are here with me(as in the same house). She always keep herself inside the room!!!

For once since i came here, i am alone. Bored and need some talk.

                                                    Anybody need a host??


There is no more time for me to be worried. Just keep fighting. This is what i always remind myself. Indeed i am or maybe i am used to it. I can imagine how relieved i will be after the next two weeks. Bring it on!!!
A new song for me- I run to you by Lady Antebellum.

Cheers!

                            

Back to 10102010

I have been doing so much recently that i barely have time for myself. I need a break. A break that i can have my own time watching movie, reading non-academic book, lots of money to splurge on shopping-spree,talking to my parents, and sitting like-now to update my blog. A little getaway.

It has indeed been a fulfilling week. This week have been filled with good food, crazy partying, great companions,newly-made friends, lovely conversations, just nice-workload that i cant spare out time to finish them. -_________-. Feel bad again.

I learned something new again. LOL. This time is a Scottish dance. Ceilidh. Thanks to Lilian and Hong yin for the invitation. This dance is easy to catch up but there were adventurous ( imagine holding your partner and spin for 6 times and only start with the dance), by that time i can feel my feet is already off-the-ground and dont even know where is my other half. Oh yea this dance have lots of partner. Yummmyy... Awesome play.

Sometimes people dont understand why i need a break too. Thanks Jyun for the reminding. And she is here now in Glasgow! LOL. All the way from Galway.

P109 who surprised Chei Wan for his birthday.














P108 who came. There were more seniors than juniors i guessed. Blahhhh.

Phew, i think that's quite a lot for one week period. This is yet another busy week. Dance classes have all started  ( is part of gym's activity), lab and labbbbb and also lab, plenty of deadlines........dead, dinners, uni's events that i already put in my name, and hopefully a trip to Nottingham ( please dont make me cancel it).

I am anxiously waiting for more to come. Guess i am still enjoying the crazee period of my life before all the shits come to me. Like walking from Uni to bath street with high heels just for clubbing and back with bare foot, luckily CV was there, or excitedly planning for a trip to London during Christmas and only realised that mid of Jan is the exam period. I would tell myself what a day it has been, or at least there is something...NEW for me.

Notes: The worst thing when you remember how little things you thought about the people you broke up with is they are gone from you. I am glad for it. I hope it is. 

Save me

In a few hours time, you will see the pictures of Edinburgh taken by...............me, haha, is may hwa them. LOL.
Girls, enjoy the trip! Help me to check out the 'people' there. xD
In few months time basically you might only get to see the pictures of this lovely country taken by me.haha. Can't wait!

Another fire alarm today.No idea the figures. Oh well....this time was during the lecture. I think the alarm here are just too sensitive, who bother to go out of the building which is freezing cold when you know that it is just a practice/ it is really on fire!!

The lectures for this two days didnt go well. Too much of information bombarding in which I am so lazy to study them. I can imagine how relieved i will be after i complete my cv and send in my application. I need to have a beautiful mind for this to happen, and believe that something extraordinary is possible.

Now, back to revision.

Battle-field

The summer placement application is open and the deadline is November,which is only one month left. I can imagine myself losing this opportunity and get my ass back to malaysia next summer although i never buy my return ticket.

When you have unreasonably demand and expectation on yourself, but cant achieve them even you want for it, the feeling sucks. It sucks even more when you have so many more to catch up, with all the lab going on. I feel bad for not being able to achieve what i expect myself to be.

Had a thought on fate today. Things may be fated to be, but we can choose not to follow it. Work it out the one you want, realise it and move on after that. 

Had a very nice workout today, went for outdoor jogging. I think all my anger have just been released. 

Shortcomings

Yesterday I realised i had so so much to learn. How to deal and communicate with patients in the correct way.
How to represent yourself and act professional enough in front of them. How to go about doing things when you dont even have a single ideas/clues on what is going on. Spontaneous. This is what i need to catch up and learn. I have been asking so many questions during this three hours PP3 lab that i am very very surprised with myself. Even role play with the lecturer. It all started well, just that it didnt end in the way i expect myself to be. I know i still cant answer a lot of questions nor give the good counselling/explanations as what i should do, but in fact it is a good start. It is such a great for me that my lab partner is such a brilliant pharmacist. I get to learn a lot form her. Just as you know half of the people in my group did their part time job since Year 1 which is so so out of my expectations. What a great start for me in Year 3. The people here intimidated me, in a good way which i should feel great. I just dont like the feeling of not able to complete something/do it in a right way that i know i am probably able with it.

I have been complaining to myself recently a lot, nor in summer placement or getting a part time job which is a million miles for me to achieve it. Disappointed.

And yea. The con-PP3 man beat me out of 3 pounds for a spatula. They chiseled me out of my money. My money is like the river flowing out non-stop but there is no return at all! Screaming out loud. Job ar job better come approach me. xDD.

The lack of concentration and hard work during the lectures is killing me. Maybe the surrounding. Study on guys rather than the lecture. LOL. Slap.

Thanks Lily!!!!! I opened my mailbox and saw this postcard. So sweet of you.I am so glad to have you this lovely friend. And yea this postcard is now beside my bed. Muackss..

When i was happy, you share my joy.
When i was sad, you lend me a shoulder.
When i faced with problems in studies, you teach me.
When i needed somebody to talk with, even is in the midnight, still you will answer me.
Love you lots...

Get back to realistic. Workload is still pilling up.

It is Friday Night !!!

The whole night was just simply *insert*. Started with nice food, and end with 2 bottle of damn-cheap-disgusting whiskey, 8 cans of Strongbow, 1 bottle of Taurus for the alcoholic us. You know who were the one. xD. We played crazy drinking games ( the one i love the most) As there are lots of newbies that didnt know the game rules and keep losing and ended up finished themselves with the mixing of those liqour in one shots. LOL. It was simply hilarious. During the game, we laughed at the most random things like why you need two balls to get a banana, and lots of free shows which started from ziyi and ho liang kissing each other ( supposed to be french kiss), the two Alex giving each other love bites.

And then there was the lovely couple, how we asked them to do french kiss in front of us, a lot of questions from us like which 'base' they are now ( well there are four totally) We were actually betting for that.

me, wendy, julia, ziyi

I thought the night was a reunion for us, but in fact this was my first time knowing them more. I was happy to see julia and wendy, the crazee one when they are tipsy (Wendy the most),and lots of gossips.xD Meeting and knowing them more always change my perspectives and broaden my horizons, and things that made me go 'wow', fuiyoh.....

For me, this kind of gathering should be held more often, then people wouldn't need to attend laughing therapy or watching comedy to make themselves happy. This in fact is the perfect substitute.

Note: Things that foolish mind always chose to believe.

          Makes no sense. 

          Too taking 'things' for granted.

          Time to wake up. Not the first time i remind myself.