Happy New Year

If you ask me how i pass by the last minute of 2010 and the one minute to 2011, i would say i been surrounded by books and notes. But when the clock strike 12 midnight, it is undeniably that there is one force which push me walk into 2011 being in peace with myself because i truly know what this year had give me, and i know what  the year ahead will be.

2010 New Year 

My favorite quote for this year- Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself. And based on that perceptions, i recalled what 2010 had given me back, trying to figure out whether i can still remember the up and down behind each memories and stories, or perhaps i should say how i embrace 2010. And based on the self-reflection, 2010 has been a messy and troublesome war, with not fulfilled destiny and the lack of passion to achieve them, splurged with unnecessary balance.

Before proceeding any further, i would like to say that 2010 has its own history and there is no right or wrong, every little count, the whole notion hardly affected by the imperfect, but the progress ad personal growth from it can be checked from the narratives behind each scar and experience. To me, i have spent some days talking to myself about the fears and shine, the good and the bad, figuring out whether i get to learned from the past. It involves stripping pass those cant reset button but going on with the check list.

I bring this up because i couldn't help but to move on. I admire the determination of some of my friends who set the aspirations and achieved the goals, nor it in what way. But mine can never be so no matter how i try hard for it. My years are like a typical student- feed on the books more than others. What i am embark on might be knowing trusted friend, where love and support posed, and guide me whenever i gone wrong. I started my A-level with a non-direction kid, just as any other who first left home. But these 2 years were the encounter one, and where i realised there can be nothing that i couldn't do, both academically or otherwise. My heart take me to where i am now, although i am still yearn for things that i cannot achieve and taught to embrace the university life which i fell in love with ,and  pretty much call this place home. But there were nothing which i couldn't give up to, be the only child in the family, i was cognizance on my responsibilities, and i know the inflection point. I felt trapped within the aspirations as I can no longer sustain it despite i want it.

I appreciate your love and friendship

But there is this saying, every exit is an entry somewhere. I swallow my pride and start creating a new one. I have a reset button in fact. But i know what to preserve, what to destroy and what to create.

So for this year, no new resolutions set because i know what to stop and what to continue behind each stories  , I will color the dream for sure.

Happy New Year!